Embracing Change

Twenty-fifteen has brought about so many changes in my life. Instead of cringing and fearing them, I gracefully embraced them. I told myself that these experiences will mold me into becoming a better version of myself.

I no longer want to cling to all the “could have beens”. It’s not that I’ve lost hope, because really – hope is what fuels my soul when I am at my lowest. It’s more of accepting that some things are just not meant to happen, because if God wanted those people and those things in my life, they would still be here but they’re not – I guess I have grown tired of blaming myself. Instead of sulking and clinging to them, I allowed them to slowly slip off my grasp. 

I am not gonna lie though, there are times when my moods bounce from one extreme end to the other. I have dealt with a boatload of anxiety that it came to a point where I no longer had the energy to give a f*ck.

At times, I feel like I am literally devoid of any real emotion and there is an emptiness in me that cannot be filled. I am still searching for something, but I really have no idea what it is exactly that I am searching for.

Perhaps, if I (ever) see him again – I will know.

I have wandered around to see new places, and faces. But in the end, when the curtains fall,  I retire to my sanctuary and crawl safely back into my cocoon, just as I always do.

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Dysfunctional

The idea of portraying something unreal for the sake of validation from the public eye does not take my fancy. I have no tolerance for ambiguity. I do not have the capacity to endure your sporadic whims of faking a smile, a hug, a kiss. They do not appeal to me. So please, spare me from whatever delusion you have – that somehow we are a happy family.

WE ARE NOT.

We are flawed; we are dysfunctional, and no amount of pretense or falsehood can ever bury that.

© SGJ 

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Sending Virtual Hugs & Kisses

Dear Readers,

Because I have been MIA for such a very long time, I’m sending virtual hugs and kisses to y’all. The semester’s almost done, which means I’ll be having my summer break soon. Yay to that! Forgive my absence for now, I’m swamped with school stuff. 

Shout out to all my wordpress friends from all over the world 🙂 

Keep writing!

Lotsa Love,

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Happy Soul

So, I finished working early today and had time to blog hop. I tell you, there’s a lot of catching up to do. 😀

I had fun reading the Friday Fictioneers stuff. Most of my favorite wordpress writers are doing that weekly challenge.

I think it’s a really good writing exercise. So, I’m thinking of joining the wagon. Hmmmm.

 

Anyways, look what I found! 🙂

This really made me smile. Thank you so much for the lovely words, C. I truly appreciate it. Know that your poetry is a source of inspiration not only to me but to many more out there. Keep writing. Keep inspiring.

 

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I Will Not Let This Blog Die

I may not be able to post as often as I want to but I’ll make sure that this blog lives. I will not let it die by ignoring it completely.

Ironic as it may sound, working as a full time SEO and content writer actually made me tired of updating my blog regularly. Not that I’m tired of blogging, it’s just that writing 4000 words a day leaves me completely exhausted. It’s like losing all my energy. Jeez! I barely have time to answer personal emails.

But,

I will not let the thought of “laziness” over power me. I will keep posting even if I’m all tired and weary because I believe in the power of the written word. or typed. lol 😀 So, yes! I will not let this blog die.

To all my friends in the blogging world, just keep writing and posting stuff. I may not be able to read your works everyday but I sure will visit your blogs from time to time. I’d love to know what you guys are up to and of course, I want to read your poetry because they inspire me.

With that said, I now rest my case. Happy blogging everyone!
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Caffeine Fix

I have always loved coffee.

I used to sneak around just to have a quick sip when I was a kid. I remember my uncle putting a lot of ice cubes in his green glass. (filled with black coffee) I fell in love with iced coffee then.

Coffee became a big and important part of my life. I was heart broken when my doctor advised me to stop my daily dose of caffeine because of heartburn. I was really devastated. I tried switching to choco milk drink but there are times when I feel like something’s missing, so I give myself a cheat day, this is when I can treat myself to a quick caffeine fix. Iced coffee is the only remedy for the terrible cravings.

100% Arabica coffee.

Deep-roasted flavor with a smoky aroma and a chocolaty finish. 

Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf’s Coffee Capsules &  Starbucks Mug

                         

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Just Another Weekend — Or Not

Selflessness Coupled With Altruism.

Yesterday, I attended the Leo Club’s monthly meeting and found out that we will be having our next feeding program on September 1st. Yay! 🙂

I hate poverty. It breaks my heart to see so many street children deprived of the good life. I wish I could help them all but I can’t, so in my own little way, I try my best to at least show them the better side of life, even for just a while.

Yoga Jam, Vegetarian Dinner & Lemon Grass Tea.

Right after the meeting, my friend Mia asked me to join her yoga class. AJ also tagged along and the three of us headed to some place in Jaro to meet Mia’s yoga buddies. She introduced us to Bali and Mara, social workers from Canada who volunteered to extend their help here.

Turned out, t’was Bali’s birthday so they invited us to join their Saturday yoga jam and vegetarian dinner.

I for one, am not a fan of both. In fact, I hate vegetables! Icck.

So anyway, we joined the yoga jam and I suddenly felt more relaxed. Yoga jam isn’t your typical serious meditation stuff. It’s actually a fun activity where you listen to music and recite various mantras. It was a great experience. Oh. And I’m planning to do it again. 😉

Bali played the guitar while singing the hymns and mantras. She had a really great voice. The first time I heard her sing, I got goosebumps. Yes, her voice is thaaat beautiful! Bali also takes lovely photos.

Mara, on the other hand, was really outgoing. She was the carefree sister. I enjoyed watching her sing and dance, her energy level was unbelievable. Oh, and she’s also very creative, and she loves shoes! and shopping!!! 😀 She reminds me of my younger self. She works as a freelance graphic artist by the way, so, in case you need her services, feel free to contact her here. 

We also met Bea at the Science of Identity Foundation yesterday. She was a pretty shy girl though.

After the yoga jam, we had vegetarian dinner. I was nervous, I wasn’t sure if I could swallow the veggies. Thank God, it wasn’t so bad. In fact, I liked the onion rings! And there was tea, lemon grass tea. It was okay. I’m not a big fan of hot tea. I think you probably know that already if you have read my previous posts.

And of course, we had ice cream! Yay! It was Bali’s birthday after all.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BALI! 😀

AJ, Me, Mia, Bali and Mara
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BALI!

The photos here were from AJ’s phone since I forgot to bring my camera. So, thanks AJ! 🙂

All in all, the night was fun. Cheers to yoga, ice cream & new found friends!

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Back On Track

I don’t know what has gotten into me. I have not blogged for 11 days to be exact — and there’s no concrete reason behind. I guess I just needed a break. I spent those days reading, reading and reading.

But now, I just figured out that I’m ready to get back to writing.

Finally, after 11 days of being MIA, (Missing In Action) the Sassy Writer is now back on track. I need to remind myself that I have to write. I need to squeeze and wring my brain, do whatever it takes to keep the creative juice flowing.

The so-called writer’s block is non-existent.
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Show The Birthday Girl Some Love!

The Birthday Girl Turns 26. No. 20! LOL 😀

Got lots of stuff to blog about. Finally, I am able to post something other than the annual birthday countdown! I missed blogging. Spent almost 2 weeks posting nothing but stupid numbers. Hahah. (But don’t worry, I wrote poetry offline, will post ’em after the big day.)

God. I am so vain. But who cares?! It’s my day — so bear with me, will ya? twinkling eyes

S’time to party! Come on, everybody! Join me! CHEERS

P.S.

Can someone please greet me in Spanish?! ROSY! Where are you?! I need your Spanglish, maestra!


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